I guess I have established a pattern.
I have established many, let’s be honest, but as far as this little bloggy woggy adventure of mine is concerned, there’s a definite correlation between posting something new and Thursdays.
I always thought Wednesday was my day. Wednesday is right there in the middle of the week full of potential for goodness and accomplishment and in my lifetime a lot of good days have been Wednesdays. I count on Wednesdays to be great. Perhaps it’s my own perception, then, that of late they’ve been lacklustre. Nothing special. Nothing to write home about. (Does anybody actually write home anymore? Letters are rarer and rarer these days. Do me a solid? Remind me to write home later, okay? Now where was I…?)
Anyway, what I am trying to say is that, for me, Thursday is the New Wednesday.**
So, here we are again on a Thursday. It’s no surprise, really, is it? I mean Wednesday was so yesterday!
When we last met, I was freaking out about having to write a bio for some awesome blogger friends, with amazing blogs, who have very graciously asked me to contribute a little something to their corner of cyberspace over the summer. Yeah, ummm.. about those patterns..
I know! I am the worst! I feel horrible because I am having the hardest time with what should be the simplest of tasks, but there you have it. Bio-less in Bedford. That’s me.
It’s completely ridiculous and I will make no excuses, except to say that writing about myself in any way that even hints at any of the “self” stuff (self-promotion, self-assertion, self-assurance, self-confidence) is excruciatingly challenging. I’m working on it.
I will promote the bajoopees out of friends’ “stuff”. I can see the merit in all the interesting things they do. I promote and share lots of information, every single day, that has absolutely nothing to do with me, personally. It is sincere. I believe in the things I share and talk about online. I do it in the interest of spreading goodness in the world. I am good at it. It might not amount to a hill of beans in the long run, but in the here and now it matters to me that more good finds its way into the world.
Have you ever noticed the people online who share and re-share lots of things, but only if it is about them?
So, say someone writes something really great and Luke shares it with all his friends and Leia shares Luke’s share with all her friends and then Darth Vader comes along and sees that they are discussing the awesome (though terrifying) nature of his choke hold and he then shares both Luke’s and Leia’s shares even though that is essentially sharing a lot of the same stuff, but it’s about him, so it must be great!
That’s not me. That’s never been me. That will never be me. (Though I do do a fine conjugation, eh?)
I don’t begrudge the self-promoters. Not at all. If one is trying to make a go of any kind of career a little self-promotion is a good thing. It’s essential, to some degree, I suppose, but it’s not easy for me and the more I think about it the more cringe worthy this all seems.
Shall I over explain it some more? Or do you kind of understand what I am trying to say? (I’ll wait here while you shut down your browsers, never to return…)
Still here? Oh yay! Thank you! I appreciate that.
Now what? Well, I made a promise to myself to step outside of my comfort zone and, gosh darn it, I’m going to do exactly that.
No I won’t suddenly be like a scene from “Being John Malkovich“, I assure you, but I am going to write that bio and I am going to find a suitable photo to go along with it, if it’s the last thing I do!***
Besides, this time I also made a promise to my friends and they will hold me to it.
Happy Thursday! The next time we meet I will have a bio and a new set of friends!
I kid. I kid.
I do hope to have at least one new friend, though. Preferably one with mad photoshop skills!
*Mitch Albom wrote a beautiful book called “Tuesdays with Morrie“. If you haven’t already, I suggest you read it.
**I hope you are familiar with OITNB. If not look here, or here or here.
***This week. 🙂 Also, purely by coincidence, I am accepting applications for personal trainer, hair, makeup, photographer and photoshop guru.